N3WorLD

january 13, 2012

2012-01-25T18:27:00.001-08:00

My heart always ask my soul
When they dare to speak
A little simple words
I wanted to feel your heart
Touch your mind with my soul
Feel your breath with my skins
Treat u heart as my heart
Time is always lies
Nothing can waiting too long
This wings hardly healed by words
His feeling just like a little baby
Waiting smoothly touch
From someone that already chosen

January 25, 2012

2012-01-25T02:33:00.000-08:00

questions...
like a million nightmare
I dont scared of your question
I just dont like to repeat the same answer
Fake answer that easy to understand
make me a bit secures with u silly question
i lost a lot of confident
my though no more positive as before
I keep think of something negative that you never know
hope somebody can tell me
whisper me the truth that i seek
lead me to light of life that i missed

untruth and unbelieve

2011-12-03T23:03:00.001-08:00

Yesterday, I went to one of the shopping mall with my housemate.
The best moment happen at that time. Not the time when we left spend time together.
One gift that come without any plan. Arranged without my knowing.
A wonderful talk and mind from taxi driver. He make me awake with spinning mind.
I keep thinking what he said.
Do I ever believe to GOD? Why I cannot spend either 5 minute for HIM/HER.
I swear to be a good person one time. but the truth I never can achieve ever a single step into that reality.
I shame to be human which have a dream.
Do I ever can become rich if I be a good person?
When the world full with hatreds, cheat, and lie...
the one who got power will be very powerful
the one who rich will be very rich
the one who evil will be very evil
But i believe in myself, I will buried the evil, hatred, unhappiness in a single little smile and love

future that might make you regret

2011-11-29T06:31:00.000-08:00

I left unspoken
when I woke up from my dream
aware if that too late
hope that words never exist in this world
I just cannot forget you
like this dry lips and wet tears
I have no much to say
To prove this heart
let it be in fairytale
who can tell the words without spoken
fly with dream and hope

november 27, 2011

2011-11-26T22:25:00.000-08:00

the time always changes
past, present or tomorrow
I just dont want differentiate for no reason
Maybe I will say love you today
but not for the future
because the past make my tears fall hardly
I need you to help me to breath
I need you to help me see the light
I need you to help me to speak about love
I need you to help me to know the meaning of life
not a promise that I will give you
no matter the time
one promise, one destination, and one forever

November 22, 2011

2011-11-26T22:20:00.001-08:00

If just I can understand this heart
I will never let dilemma took over me
The feel of unsecured
Hurt this soul till the limit
Lie to my heart
Drops of tears wet shining every second from my eyes
Let this lips smile without any reason
Try to jump without hit any ground stay in air till the last breath

november 3, 2011

2011-11-03T07:30:00.000-07:00

I had a dream...
with only you inside there
everybody might be jealous of it
I keep that feeling inside my heart
Do not know what I should to do
You missing your long hair that I love
rescue you from loneliness...
somebody gonna teach me
the stupidity of life
but I just gonna be smile in the end...

October 28, 2011 (2)

2011-10-26T09:57:00.001-07:00

a simple word that always be amazing
people can cry because of you
you can change mood of the prefect creature
someday you will haunt me in no time limit
keep me in dilemma of the night
imagine someone...
thinking to the only one who make a special place in my heart
sound kinda stupid
look like dump
I only believe you are the special one
that make me crazy
maybe u not the first one
but u always be the last one for me
so just wait till that moment come
like I also always wait that time to come

October 28, 2011

2011-10-26T09:46:00.000-07:00

This story will always be continue..
I might be can see a bit secret of future
but it always be turn around up side down
that make me always life under the shadow
I want it to be changes with time
a million creature around me
repeat the same habit
sleep...eat...work...sleep...
together with laugh...cry...angry..and patience
something that i know its wrong...
but never can be avoided
little creature who had a hearth
feel a million feeling like a star on the sky
somewhere, one day, and somehow..
I always believe....
that time will come again...
repeated as the history taught us

boring life

2011-06-27T09:42:00.000-07:00

it might be just manipulation of time
keep playing the minutes of my life
put in the deep of sorrow
past,present either future
keep on my surrounding of my head
shout me a thousand words
its just hard to know the meaning
like a foreign language or the most math problem
i might be just keep to talking to myself
without anyone answer me
just one reason and one answer
that make me keep waiting and keep alive
waiting the only one that can give me that answer of life
June 28, 2011

June 19, 2011

2011-06-18T23:41:00.000-07:00

in fact there is no God or Buddha that i can meet
it just a humans...
parents, friends, enemy, and unknown...
day by days that created from a seconds
tell me something
show the hidden truth
a little brain that They created for me
A special emotion with can hurt this soul
I learn to release something
to find a lie of life
just to make you happy
with a smile

May 14, 2011

2011-05-13T11:31:00.001-07:00

today, the time after mid-nite past
I still awake from my sleep
sitting alone in the house with fluctuate feeling
I just want to scream
I want to run, or might be jump from high
looking for an answers
mind full with a million of question
this heart feel a million of feeling
feeling that i am not understand now
I miss someone
someone that can talk with me
someone that can understand me
someone that can know my feeling
just like you inside my dream
without leave u name and any memory
you just come and leave without worry of my feeling

May 3, 2011

2011-05-03T08:29:00.001-07:00

today or tommorow
now, past or later..
its just a time
no argue nor defend
this body was created
with nose to breath
smell something good or bad
but its just can use to smell
this mouth was created
to eat and speak
speak something good or bad
but its just use of mouth
this ear was created
to hear and listen
something good and bad
nothing that it can do more
the special of eyes
it can see
something good or bad
but it can do better
release a small tears
that make calm this heart
thank you tears

LOL

2011-04-14T09:39:00.000-07:00

present: I am so lazy...nothing that I want to do...
future : HURRY UP.... u dream is nearly come
present: really? when is that?
past : You argg...still never believe
how much time that u already spend with nothing
present : maybe one second, or one minute..
past : Grrrgggg....OK...I dont care with You anymore....
Think everything by yourself
present : @@ something wrong with him...
future : Arggg...damn stupid, because of you i become like this
present : What? I hear something...
future : hmm...nothing...maybe will u understand soon
present : Ok...so i will keep waiting then...
then what I need to do now.... @@

April 15, 2011

2011-04-14T09:19:00.001-07:00

bless my soul
so that this mind still can think calmly
with this limitation
i just want reach there
touch my imagination
with this impurity soul
I just want reach there
hear my breath
with un-bless of this heart
i want to feel u heart
no words neither a language
just this heart will speak loudly
with a thousand language
to just make u understand
someone kneel somewhere
with hope and full of bless

friendship

2011-04-04T12:24:00.000-07:00

The sun slowly but sure
Fade away with this coldness
Bless me from fainted
Give a little strength to this little body
To see u one more times
The sky see my soul
Mixed together to be a rain
Just small rain that make heart soft
Cool down my emotion
Cover my tears
Or maybe the rain is my tears
The things I never sure at the moment
Just left all the memory as a treasure
This friendship will never fade and always be there
From now and forever
June 29, 2010

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

2011-04-04T12:10:00.000-07:00

the dark nite is gonna be over soon
sun will rising slowly from the east
sunlight slowly but sure will go through my window
wake me up with little shine
repeat every time without get bored
scream from the bottom of sea
just a little wave absorb
think of someone
just is just like a blinking
wanna care but it just difficult
I miss
I need care
I love to be there
just be there
I will feel secure and happy
with no others things that I need

keep in a spirit(February 24, 2010)

2011-02-23T09:23:00.000-08:00

the rhythm of music ready to tickle my ears
with a melody of piano
created from a soft fingers
that dancing slow and fast with full of emotion
a set of wire from violin
together with brave
remind the notes and melody keep in a harmony
place a soul and body keep in the rite place
to show and and enjoy a feeling of joyful

february 10.2011 (unique)

2011-02-09T10:59:00.000-08:00

soul and body fuse together to create a human
with a brain and heart
that make different with any life in this world
the eyes can use to see
the ear can use to hear
the skin can use to feel
make a life so beautiful
full with love
just waiting for a moment be together with you
till the time never be changes
although it only a second
to remember u face and feel u heart pumping
just you that I waiting for so long
without a reason, and question
it just been there to wait the time

october 4, 2010

2010-10-04T04:48:00.000-07:00

In the deep of sorrow
I standing there to feel u soul
Complete unbalanced energy that come from u desired
I forced my limit to keep standing here
No the place where I need to run
But just want to protect u
Not because I want to have u
Or because I want to playing with u
My soul just talk by himself
Move without any control
Only mouth and body that I control
But not this heart that I love
The one that give me a meaning of life
Share the love to only make u happy
Please forgive me if I cross the limit
The limit that never I can see from my eyes
But just from u heart and eyes

September 29, 2010

2010-09-29T07:48:00.000-07:00

Lucky
I only can say, it just my destiny
the fate that I meet you
nobody never can understand it
I come and go without I realize
My determination is suddenly come out
I just believe in you
its not u need me
or I need you in the return
but this believe that meet us
fill that something need to be completed
dont regret or sad about the moment
thanks full for all the time being
from now and the future
all will be written from the air on the sky
give me words to show me the heart of life

Truth(August 16, 2010)

2010-08-16T07:06:00.000-07:00

I hear so many things fly around my ear
the voice of someone, and everyone
whisper my heart to feel with brain
I start to think and speak
but nobody understand what i said
its not because of my language
its not because I cannot speak
but I really dont know
i started to cry in my dilemma
this truth will never be true in my life
nobody will remain the same after the truth appear
you changes this attitude to be a lier
hide me from everything

july 27,2010

2010-07-27T04:52:00.000-07:00

what is a wings..
when never know how it look like
when it never can help u to fly
when it not be able to protect u from cold and hot
but I just can feel it
there is exist
something that I can see
something that I just can think
with a soft of feeling
waiting for this wings appear
carry me to the seven sky
protect u from the cold and sun
bring back to the place that always be in our dream

july 20,2010

2010-07-20T04:26:00.000-07:00

never ask me again
even it only one more time
my body is already over heat
to keep this pressure up inside my body
my blood changed my skin become red
and my tears to be vapour
no more seconds to think about it
just can hold it for u happiness
left my hands in my chest
and let my shoulder to hold you
pay this fate with my blood
to changes the future of the truth

July 8,2010

2010-07-08T02:59:00.001-07:00

i am crying
with my heart freeze
with a closed eyed
I pretend never know the time
never want to make any promise
for the special days
that i dont want to see u face again
maybe there was no reason that u can accept
i just dont want to see u tears anymore
u tears is sharp like a knive
but this heart is fragile like a glass
its not love word i want to heard from you
but i only wanna see u smile attached in u face forever
from the first time i see u
till the last moment I can see u
just the lovely smile from u lips that can make me see the future...

july 3, 2010

2010-07-02T20:51:00.001-07:00

maybe the angel always standing beside you
but u believe never lead u to avoid u fear
white and dark just like a little piece of air
never be form and never be touch
little creature that always invisible by this eyes
but not this heart
the power of love from a piece of red heart
the emotion just a illusion
u angry just make u lost of control
but u smile always change u life
not only u, but also ppl around you

June 10,2010

2010-06-10T08:58:00.000-07:00

I never know when the story was begin
Maybe It just never exist
in the nite and the morning
with a fear and worry
waiting u in the nite
thunder of rain scared me about you
in my hand
I bow to our God
beg of u safety
sound like a numb
ask something without answer
or maybe there is an answer
weak inside a strong...
strong inside the weak...
hidden in nowhere
cover up by shining metal from the earth
reflected the sun wave to the moon
wake me up from a shadow of nite

May 14, 2010

2010-05-13T10:06:00.000-07:00

no more i can hope
no more i can depend on
my appearance bring me to the way
the path I never know before
with no clue lead me
I believe to my soul and mind
bring me to the wonderful way
with surprise or plan
find the truth of myself

unconsius

2010-04-28T22:24:00.000-07:00

i woke up after sunrise
walk with half eyes closed
slowly My hearth scream
want to bring my soul rest again
a power come and me relax...
time for me to sleep again
u ask me, word by world...
make me feel very sleepy
wanted to sleep
but my heart tell me
give some respect
there is no answer i can give
not because i dont want to answer
but just no more lie for something not exist
i walk at the moment with awareness
see the future as a mist
give a warm to the surrounding
transform a mist to the light
lead people to way of happiness
no more worry in my heart
only smile u will see from my eyes

April 11, 2010

2010-04-10T09:56:00.001-07:00

its quite long
few years back
wake up my bad dream
not even a dream i got
i keep awake with a nightmare
try to find the answer
but my mouth dont dare to speak
my heart keep become a stranger
everyone keep quite
with no words of truth
only a few support i got
thank for u
who always accompany me until dawn
make u cannot sleep well too
my brain is trugle
gap of believe or dream
just seperate by a single hair
I know u suffering too long
i want to blame you
with my true heart
but i also wanna to thank to you
bcoz u care of me
no words can be spoken
only soul can speak
with heart we see each other
hope can see u again in the future
not too soon but for sure...
Thank you Dad...

real

2010-03-15T05:50:00.000-07:00

My lover is not real
No because she is not exist
No because she is not a human
No because I am lying to u
That just because I cannot remember u face
Ur smile
And also ur appearance
I just can feel u care
U love
And u kindness
to love with my heart

Liar

2010-03-05T21:26:00.000-08:00

words full with a lie
will this world be peace if no lie there
i hear lie here and there
like no ending
its no even matter who say that
lie to the liar
close my eyes
let a numb pass away from me
every step i use
like a mistake in u eyes
make me closer to the hell
without a clue
u happiness just make me more suffer
this reality just like a mist
create something impossible
just like before
i just try to not know u from beginning

march 2, 2010

2010-03-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

its just a while as i remember
the time was left out
no faster nor slowly
just smoothly flowing like a wind
see u blur face its make me smile
but u smile is the most i wanted 2 ever see
that all i needed rite now
nothing else i deserve at the moment
touch you body is just my imagination
kiss your lips is just my dream
a candle shown me u face
the air help me to feel u body
and the moon watch over there to protect u and me
make everyone jealous :p

special day

2010-02-14T00:32:00.000-08:00

a horn sounded as a symbol
firework fly out in the sky
a color of light bright a dark nite
a little cupid fly over the nite
with bow and arrow looking for somebody
a bless couple remain as the target
a sound of drum wake a lion and dragon
dance over a nite
protect a lovely one
now and forever

february 7, 2010

2010-02-07T06:27:00.000-08:00

its over a million times
neither lost or win
just hope to be more shine
let me to care u more
please stop to overhauling the past
touch the sunshine in two continent
oceans only can see
plum fruits blossom on top of hill
sparrow bring the seeds across the soul
u always there, inside my dream and my future
under my paw of life

2009-12-11T19:21:00.000-08:00

when a nite become a dark
when a morning become a sunset
a million question follow like a water
missing a stars in the nite
blinking and smiling
radiate a happiness in the quite time

2009-12-04T02:04:00.000-08:00

sayap burung kecil terluka
menghentikan kepakannya nan indah
menjerat impian ntuk bebas terbang di langit biru
deratan otot mengalirkan smua darahku

2009-11-26T10:21:00.000-08:00

you are the one for me
please wait me until the day
i will smile again for you
only for you i keep my truly smile

I will be

2009-11-16T23:53:00.000-08:00

the time will be changes
i will be like a star
with my strength
i will be a hero
with my intelligent
i will be a success man
with my dream
i will change the world
with my hopeless
i will bring a light for you
with my laziness
i will make something different
with my mouth
i wont speak any useless language
with my mind
i will think to future
with my heart
i will love you with my true soul

2009-11-14T06:34:00.000-08:00

sometimes, we never know what will happen in the next second
but i always believe there is a fate which is drive our life
however, i always believe if that can be changes
with a full of awareness of my mind and body
I can changes what will happen in the next second
a boring life and far from hard life in town
might be stay away from me
with less and much of awareness
only different mind appear in my mind
what i think always in opposite with others mind
i want to be alone but not be lonely
the way i life is just the best way it might be for me...
a free thinker is not always feel right
they just think to feel what others feel
with no attention to hurt anyone

september 28, 2009

2009-09-26T12:08:00.000-07:00

its run like a leopard in savanna
no one can be able to catch up
with a little memory
left all the trace under a secret
a detective try to figure out
no meaning can be found
no evidence can be known
just a little memory
like a bulb light under the sun
it shining without can be seen by eyes
gone under the brightness of the sun

2009-09-19T01:53:00.000-07:00

it just the matter of time
which never can be touch and smell
just can remembered
not a single bond remaining
flying light a white cotton
weak, light, asnd soft
look beutifull in a sky
flying without direction
keep reamin in the blue of sky
with the sun light as a direction

better u dont know than get hurt

2009-08-12T10:53:00.000-07:00

time is never count back
it also never lie
know the truth doesn't mean good forever
two side of feeling fighting to raise a freedom
One side justice to know everything
Another side hide with angry to avoid the truth
You will never go anywhere, so do I who always wait you here
stand in the middle of unknown feeling
nowhere i will go like my heart said
I can remember the clue but just left it inside my heart
no brain or feeling I use
either fate i try to refuse under my unknown spirit

understand of unknown

2009-08-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

the eyes only can see
give a feeling into my hearth
nothing I can do
although with my brain right now
just a little thinking of them
suffer, tears, blood...
no one can be spread from them
A rain come to cover a sun
bright blocked by a water tears
waiting a new hope like a rainbow

2009-07-21T10:24:00.000-07:00

last night, i dreamed something strange.
someone in my past draw a sunflower and bee in my hand
although she use pencil, it still cannot remove by water after i take a bath
i don't afraid about it
instead i think so much about the meaning of that dream
for sure, i don't need to worry about the person anymore
because she look very happy with her life now
I don't want to ask to anyone about that
more know more scared to face this life
i read from somewhere last time
He wrote, if we know more about something, the way u face will become harder than before
If u think roughly, it very true which happen in this world
baby always be happy because they don't know anything
following the time, people getting stress to survive from this life\

July 20, 2009

2009-07-20T06:34:00.000-07:00

sometimes u wont understand the meaning of this life
but, just in a second, u can imagine all the answer of your question
mind operate like a computer machine
but body still stunning in the place u standing
feel horrible, regret, sad, and also embarrasses
mood changing very fast
a million plans already written in my memory
but, no even one of plan in the progress
i just can remember without any action
my another mind tell me to not do something new
its just too lazy and hard
a stupid mood give me something stupid life
may I simply break this mood's wall
its not easy...
but i will try with my heart
not only speak and mind
I will try to act without any plan
don't only follow my fate, but also create a new fate
bring all the love, and gather it with another wonderful love

June 23, 2009

2009-06-22T11:05:00.000-07:00

its a tear to delivery message of farewell
its not a secret of my heart
just a little sound of sadness
happiness and sadness almost can be differentiate
a movement of body
a sound of heart's breath
gonna miss a moment of time being
the time has come
bring to the new future and question
challenge, disappointment, scared, happiness
all waiting without known...
A mother waiting for a clue

June 19, 2009

2009-06-19T06:04:00.000-07:00

remember of time
imagine the sketch
line and dots join together
connected to give a wonderful creature in my mind
a reflection from my eyes show how beautiful u apparance
its nothing to regret
hear the amazing heart's sound from u chest
give a double power to my life
the sun always rise from east and disappear on west
it will repeat although not in the same time and also place
either love also cannot run away so far from my heart
although that will appear new day with a great surprise in my life
just remember this smile until will get old and come back to heaven

June 18, 2009

2009-06-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

its just a feeling
believe it or not is just depend on you
i never can describe how is look like
happy and also some a dark memory or maybe its not really dark memory
i just know it wont repeat anymore in my life
if it repeat, i believe that is one of the miracle in my life
just believe to the fate
no planning, and also worry about future
just follow the way where the time bring me to some new place
just hope you be well and happy always
JUST BELIEVE IT, DON'T NEED TO THINK MUCH

2009-05-11T20:48:00.001-07:00

its time to choose
to get lost or stay in the correct way

2009-05-06T08:32:00.000-07:00

sometimes...its just too much for me
no more happiness come too me
actually its can say it never come to me
the real happiness in my life
like the love when the first day i born into this earth
i never feel it again
life under black shadow
half of my life is gone because another ppl in there
nobody can feel my feeling
the real feeling i feel inside my heart
not bcoz of money or gold
its just a simply love without any return
happiness without any pressure
happiness without any hope in the future
just give me a little love
so i can do everything with my effort
not because of force and pressure
it never can work to me
my tears is just little rainbow
who miss the time for a real happiness
I JUST WANT TO COMPLETE MY LITTLE PROMISE TO THE PPL I MADE BEFORE
AFTER IT DONE LET ME FLY FREE TO THE MOMENT I WANTED TO BE

2009-05-06T01:17:00.000-07:00

feel like give up everything i have done before
nothing happiness i found so far
not bcoz the ppl around me...
its most bcoz something inside my feeling
I always say to my friends...we need to enjoy our life
so we can get everthing is going rite and beautifull
is this really my way to go....
may some1 tell me the truth of this life
where i should go and get happiness
the world without worry, pressure, and hateness
the world with happiness, creativity, effort, and......
try to open my eyes....
its nothing correct in my view
feel something lost from my mind
my heath always scream without stop
May i just leave it behind and go without it....

2009-04-24T08:07:00.000-07:00

follow u emotion to give unjustice act
should I keep quite and let it go
should I care about other ppl future
should I give up to anything i want
Fact and reality always frighten under my shadow
what i did in the past of my life
is there any bad moment make me dying in this present time
feel to leave everything behind my shoulder
run away from any duty and hope from others
leave me alone without any disturbance
like people i love
one by one left me alone in this world
feel to find back all of them
although there will appear a word of IMPOSSIBLE
the word who appear just a milimeter in front of my eyes
a heart, soul, and feeling always reject me to be near and make us together
just hope a fate will changes a cycle of my life
make u came back near to my life

Hydrogen bonds

2009-04-13T06:53:00.000-07:00

its almost two years
begin from hydrogen bonds in chemistry
a weak bonds gather to build all water tears into strong bonds
one bond conected into another bond
build up some kind of wonderfull story
one touch give an extra catalyst
make it unbreakable
Ohhhh Noooooo...........
its too much...
there too much catalist inside this story
slowly and slowly
the bonds melting into a hydrogen
colorless gas release without any clue
disappear to unknow places...
keep a lonely hydrogen inside the earth vacum
waiting for another bonds to come
missing the bond and waiting in the long sleep
feel thank you for the bond who make me strong in that period time
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

2009-04-12T03:33:00.000-07:00

Look to the sky
there a dark clouds prevent sun reach my soul
told me to walk somewhere
follow the heart
pass through a quite ground

In a minute
all changes into coolnest
feel the drop of tears
feel warm and strange

knowing about something
feel from unknow distance
nothing can see
no words either mind
can explain clearly about this feeling

the distance will disappear
a small memory will appear
conected by a spirit bonds
make you always near into my heart

no anger either regret
only a spirit of heart will show the way

2009-03-08T09:36:00.000-07:00

please create a better pleace for us...
far from a suffer
full of happiness around
love between u and me
no more tears under my eyes
deliver a warm hug
a kiss not only love
but also symbol of happiness
no more dry throat
no more hunger inside my stomach
only smile of peacefull
smile of wisdom

Love

2009-03-08T09:30:00.000-07:00

white love in the deep of u heart
waiting for something special under the sunrise
red roses symbol of love
no joke or mop
only joy and happiness
with u smile and happiness
i only be able to pray from my lowest dignity
hope u always be in my heart
see u smile is the best i can see
nothing i will hope from u

untittle

2009-03-08T09:28:00.000-07:00

dimakah aku berdiri ntuk menantimu
hanya termenung akn wajahmu yg mempesona
ciuman pertama yg kudapat
tak pernh terlupaka seperti pahatan indah di batu pualam
what is inside u heart
is u mind full of my creature
or u only think me as a doll
nothing the only word i always say to you
a lot meaning but never can be explain
a lot questions but no one can be asked...
a lot memory created but only one will be in my heart forever
until sunset end and changes into nite
my tears froze to unshape
close my heart and keep it sleep again
sleep like a child miss of candies

Stop complaining

2009-03-01T04:55:00.000-08:00

can people stop complaining
how difficult it to be
just accept the fate
with the honest and gentle
the wind fly into the ocean
bring a vapor salt
changes into a sweet honey in bee forest
a beautifful dry summer
keep the wings for white winter

Memory

2009-02-25T07:30:00.000-08:00

a time to remember
a time to forget
come as a gift into our life
no one is bad inside the memory
only feeling will say different from reality
u can try, but cannot to force
it will always inside u heart
freeze as a blood cell
fuse with the soul
create a new life
a wondefull life without any surprise

2009-02-01T11:06:00.000-08:00

In the feel of river
I try to keep awake from all the suffer
Is there any happiness left in this world
just try to give me one more clue
dawn of the sun leave me alone here
where is the other star
can u help me to make this life become easy
God is the one i believed in spirit way
not the one who trying to be Him
I only should to make this life become easy

where is the end of my future

2009-01-24T10:21:00.000-08:00

where is the end....
do my future will end soon
hmmm....
or still far away from the end
i dont know, why my future need to depend on money
money which created by human
then, human also who suffer coz of it
what should i do...
when no place to stay
no decision in the plan
only dark way in front of me
is there any light will shine my way
can somebody hear me from the darknes
help me to build my foundation in the deep of darknes

2008-12-16T07:04:00.000-08:00

what i feel is not always correct
i life in this earth because somebody wanna me to life
although no reason come out from anywhere
u go because u want to go
i life here because some1 still need me in this life
my mission havent complete yet
wait me until the time is over
i dont want make a same mistake like u did in the past
so sorry about that
u will know the answer soon or later
time will bring u there when u ready to accept the reality
just wait me there
until the last snow falling in u heart

2008-12-16T07:02:00.000-08:00

2008-10-29T19:32:00.000-07:00

life
what it for for me and also for other people
i life only 4 survive from death
more worse i survive only to get more money
some people said, no money no point for u life in this world
i think for long time
however, i never can found the answer why i need to life
one by one people pass away from this world
leave me alone in this life
should i follow them...
my heart screaming hear their cried
my brain is blank like a new paper
my Lord, do You exist there

2008-10-13T09:20:00.000-07:00

easy to say, but difficult to act

2008-10-11T07:55:00.001-07:00

say is very easy to do
without think we can say anything
sometimes, it come out byself
do it always sincrone with our act
hahaha
i think that impossible
our brain is not perfect 100% to manage our body
u think i do
or i think u do
unlife cells in our brain will affect into perfectness our act
like now, i also dont know what i doing
hahaha

2008-09-22T07:58:00.000-07:00

dont even think about a dream
u will scared about something is going on
look outside the windows
light with a smoke united to be one
closed u view toward the future
keep in your mind
i always be here to cheers you up
till my life end
till my soul dissapear from this earth and u life

2008-09-17T06:00:00.000-07:00

why i so sad today
not because anyone around me
but more bcoz what happen in this world
bomb, killed, global warming......
is there any good news can make me happy when i read it
i want a peace
happiness in this wolrd
sometimes, i think why i need to be born in this world
why i need to survive for this life
1 from a million answer appear in my mind
i need to life to changes this world to be better
make people around me to be happy
:)
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please stay away from my life
a thousand miles from this earth
to let my races become happy
just remind us with a bit rain upper there
a rainbow will give us new motivation
dont ask me why if something bad happen
ask uself instead scould others
open u heart and listen with u eyes
how beautifull this life without any evil

2008-09-07T08:53:00.000-07:00

today, i met her again after long time
although we only see without greet each other
luckily, my emotion was getting better...
i can control my mind to not do something stupid...:p
however, my heart told me something different
in apperanced, she looked prettier than before, but something i never see anymore for long time
she real smile, which one i like the most before
she like hiding something from this life
in my mind only hope she will be good, happy and peacefull in the future
jiayo for u life
nothing i can do if never want ask me for my help...
u tears is my regreetness in my life...
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in the hottest day, spring of water flush my heart
show me a real diamond in my life
not only in the dream i look
the real things in this real life
but, why.....
the diamond not same as in my dream
or i dreamed in the real life
where is it light...
when it shines to remove darkness around it
help me to shine again in this world
i want u to smile again
u smile is more than enough for me
the most beautifull gift i had receive ever...

2008-08-30T06:23:00.000-07:00

last week, one of my best friend ask me....
Did i have a girlfriend....
i told her, if i broken up already because we had different point of view
the problem is....what is it...
something i never can explain what is different between my mind and her mind...
:p
in quite i didn't give any answer to her....
the nite after, i dreaming in the darkness on my bed
thinking about my fault, my stupidness and my regret
i aware about the life
but cannot share this experience to anyone
let it keep as a secret forever
no true or wrong in this life
all come from mind and from mind we judge the future

2008-08-07T11:36:00.000-07:00

I tired to be second, third, ....

but i dont want to hurt anyone bcoz i want to be the first

please show me the way....

its easy to be the first

but very difficult to keep others people happy

we need to sacrifice something to let others to be happy

in my life, I aware about it very well

painfull of this heart, never can be recover

I only want to forget it

just remember about happiness as a history

throw away hateness, sadness, and darkness....

give my tears for a big smile....

i dont want see tears anymore

let my tears drops alone

dont care about me

I choose this way because love peace

although i need to sacrifice my life

I only wanna you to be happy forever

easy to say but difficult to do

2008-08-07T11:23:00.001-07:00

this life is very unique

that very easy to give advice

but very difficult to do something correct in this life

all begin from mind, thinking, and send to our heart

there the heart feel everything, then send back to our mind

sad, happy, angry, hateness,.......

our body pretend to stand

force our blood to deliver the oxygen

give me a fresh mind

calm down my heart breathing

try to forget everything

coz all already passed

looking for a future

its heavy to moves on

get a better future and happiness

FAILED

2008-08-04T06:47:00.000-07:00

1 more times i failed in this life

i dont knowwhat should i do

tell me the answer please

SMILE

2008-07-30T03:20:00.000-07:00

ullwhat is a smile...

look for a baby when their smiling

you will find a pure smile in the world

without any force, or pressure

smile can make this heart become peace and happy

just see the picture of the child on the right

so peacefull....

so happy....

i believe when sad people look this picture...or lucky enough to see byself in their life, they will feel peace, calm, and happy...

why we not start to smile

smile to everyone we meet

give a rainbow in this life

cover all sadness with happiness...

your smile will reduce stresses rate in the world

make your heart happy bcoz people will be very thank to you

smile againt smile

all will be very beautifull

2008-07-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

what is the meaning of silence

dont care ...hate... or scared about something

i want know what are u doing

how your feeling

the most important

my soul miss you

that was a fate

all running without any compromise

real reason i never can be explain to you

all already like mixed color in the plate

cannot be sperated

mixed in the one soul

hope you be well and happy always with your love

2008-07-17T23:05:00.000-07:00

my future flooating in the sky

waiting for heavy rain in the hotness

an angel looking for me with tears

suppose to help but fate stop it

they fly into the heaven

give a rainbow as a gift

my heath sink under the mud

hope about sun

help to dry the mud

just 1 sound i never can remember

someone will love you forever

the only word make me survive in this world

the dream come true

2008-07-16T10:59:00.000-07:00

i know that only a dream

then i suppose not to believe about it

I cried in that nite

hope nothing would be happen in the day

My mood was very terrible until i receive a message

the dream....

tell me the truth....

my heart screaming

couldn't believe what just happen

As i know, i really make u hurt in the heart

that the way u choose and the only thing i can do

i didnt suppose to do that

misunderstood ald become so cruel

nothing can be explain

i only do as my feeling said

the mouth can be a lier

your heath always be a treassure to keep a truth

nobody can tell lie into your heart

although ocean in the middle

different language occur there

that was impossible to know the sound of heart

sound of dream

2008-07-16T10:45:00.000-07:00

a bird singing in the nite

woke me up from the sleep

help me come out from a scary dream

i silent in the darkness

aware if that was be late

the heart already be hurt

the voice only will sound annoying in the ears

say good bye only make the tears drop

waitng the time to forget everything

i know that will be very long until the third winter end

future will remind you and me in memory

Dream in the dream

2008-07-16T03:33:00.000-07:00

a beautifull dream come in the tight sleep

give a smile either tears

suppose to open the eyes

why so heavy

i want to run

2007-12-08T01:10:00.001-08:00

this my life
i will never compete to anyone if they can do it
competision always got lost and win
something i dont like from i know what the meaning of it
everytime ppl always wanna become the first
in this case everything can give a happy in the end
but nobody wanna become the first when something bad appear in front of them
if ppl already give othar something
better dont give anything to them anymore
or that will become hurt for that person
in fact...
u also dont know how to give your attention
if we wanna compare...
we need give more than that person
that something i think very stupid in this life