january 13, 2012

My heart always ask my soul
When they dare to speak
A little simple words
I wanted to feel your heart
Touch your mind with my soul
Feel your breath with my skins
Treat u heart as my heart
Time is always lies
Nothing can waiting too long
This wings hardly healed by words
His feeling just like a little baby
Waiting smoothly touch
From someone that already chosen

January 25, 2012

questions...
like a million nightmare
I dont scared of your question
I just dont like to repeat the same answer
Fake answer that easy to understand
make me a bit secures with u silly question
i lost a lot of confident
my though no more positive as before
I keep think of something negative that you never know
hope somebody can tell me
whisper me the truth that i seek
lead me to light of life that i missed

untruth and unbelieve

Yesterday, I went to one of the shopping mall with my housemate.
The best moment happen at that time. Not the time when we left spend time together.
One gift that come without any plan. Arranged without my knowing.
A wonderful talk and mind from taxi driver. He make me awake with spinning mind.
I keep thinking what he said.
Do I ever believe to GOD? Why I cannot spend either 5 minute for HIM/HER.
I swear to be a good person one time. but the truth I never can achieve ever a single step into that reality.
I shame to be human which have a dream.
Do I ever can become rich if I be a good person?
When the world full with hatreds, cheat, and lie...
the one who got power will be very powerful
the one who rich will be very rich
the one who evil will be very evil
But i believe in myself, I will buried the evil, hatred, unhappiness in a single little smile and love

future that might make you regret

I left unspoken
when I woke up from my dream
aware if that too late
hope that words never exist in this world
I just cannot forget you
like this dry lips and wet tears
I have no much to say
To prove this heart
let it be in fairytale
who can tell the words without spoken
fly with dream and hope

november 27, 2011

the time always changes
past, present or tomorrow
I just dont want differentiate for no reason
Maybe I will say love you today
but not for the future
because the past make my tears fall hardly
I need you to help me to breath
I need you to help me see the light
I need you to help me to speak about love
I need you to help me to know the meaning of life
not a promise that I will give you
no matter the time
one promise, one destination, and one forever

November 22, 2011

If just I can understand this heart
I will never let dilemma took over me
The feel of unsecured
Hurt this soul till the limit
Lie to my heart
Drops of tears wet shining every second from my eyes
Let this lips smile without any reason
Try to jump without hit any ground stay in air till the last breath

november 3, 2011

I had a dream...
with only you inside there
everybody might be jealous of it
I keep that feeling inside my heart
Do not know what I should to do
You missing your long hair that I love
rescue you from loneliness...
somebody gonna teach me
the stupidity of life
but I just gonna be smile in the end...

October 28, 2011 (2)

a simple word that always be amazing
people can cry because of you
you can change mood of the prefect creature
someday you will haunt me in no time limit
keep me in dilemma of the night
imagine someone...
thinking to the only one who make a special place in my heart
sound kinda stupid
look like dump
I only believe you are the special one
that make me crazy
maybe u not the first one
but u always be the last one for me
so just wait till that moment come
like I also always wait that time to come

October 28, 2011

This story will always be continue..
I might be can see a bit secret of future
but it always be turn around up side down
that make me always life under the shadow
I want it to be changes with time
a million creature around me
repeat the same habit
sleep...eat...work...sleep...
together with laugh...cry...angry..and patience
something that i know its wrong...
but never can be avoided
little creature who had a hearth
feel a million feeling like a star on the sky
somewhere, one day, and somehow..
I always believe....
that time will come again...
repeated as the history taught us

boring life

it might be just manipulation of time
keep playing the minutes of my life
put in the deep of sorrow
past,present either future
keep on my surrounding of my head
shout me a thousand words
its just hard to know the meaning
like a foreign language or the most math problem
i might be just keep to talking to myself
without anyone answer me
just one reason and one answer
that make me keep waiting and keep alive
waiting the only one that can give me that answer of life
June 28, 2011